The Blackness of My Blackness

The blackness of my blackness is when I'm ashamed or embarrassed. It can emerge when I'm jealous or sad. Sometimes it comes when I am my most happy or excited. It comes when I think only of myself and not of the consequences that might come of my actions and words or of the hurt it could cause other people. The blackness of my blackness is solely about me and my wants. No one else. Alone.